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Message: <blockquote data-quote="Karin Schill" data-source="post: 16535">Thank you for the feedback Sanda. <img src="data:image/gif;base64,R0lGODlhAQABAIAAAAAAAP///yH5BAEAAAAALAAAAAABAAEAAAIBRAA7" class="smilie smilie--sprite smilie--sprite1" alt=":)" title="Smile    :)" loading="lazy" data-shortname=":)" /> Also you're in luck the next update is also about Bobby & Pam so you'll find out more now...Bobby just couldn’t believe his ears. In all their years together he and Pam had always dreamt of having another child and yet hearing her say it now he felt like the air had suddenly been punched out of his lungs and a sense of disbelief came over him, “She’s my...what?” Bobby asked. Because this just can’t be true, there’s just no way in hell that she’d said what I thought she said, Bobby reflected, as it got quiet between them.Yet when she finally spoke she just said the same thing all over again. “Your daughter...” Pam repeated, more calmly this time. “Rebecca is our daughter Bobby...”“Our daughter?” Bobby asked in disbelief. “I’m sorry I know I said that I’d understand but I really don’t...” Bobby shook his head. “I mean how can she be my daughter?”“I know it might be hard to take in. But it’s true,” Pam insisted. “I hope you don’t mind that I named her after my mama...” Pam said with a sad smile.“Of course not that’s what we always wanted to name our little girl,” Bobby said emotionally. “Still what I don’t get is how she can be my daughter when you’ve obviously adopted her after we got divorced and...”“No,” Pam shook her head.“You adopted her before you filed for a divorce?” Bobby asked. “But that doesn’t make any sense...I mean if you were really that sick, how could anyone let you adopt a little girl?”“Bobby please listen to me,” Pam pleaded. “I know you’re probably gonna have a hard time believing this, but Rebecca’s not adopted...” Bobby’s eyes went wide in surprise, “You mean that…”“Yes I did give birth to Rebecca,” Pam confirmed, what he couldn’t put into words. “But Pam, how can that be?” Bobby asked confused. “I mean...you’ve never been able to carry a baby to term before and how can she be mine?” Bobby’s mind was working overtime as he was trying to make sense of it. “I mean with the accident and everything I...”“I know it’s hard to believe and I couldn’t believe it myself at first...but I guess it finally happened and given the circumstances of her birth I guess it’s not wrong to call her a miracle baby...” Pam said with tears in her eyes.“I’d say so,” Bobby shook his head in disbelief. “But are you sure she’s really mine?” Bobby asked again. “I mean with the accident and your disappearance I really have a hard time seeing how...”“Please Bobby you’ve just got to trust me on this,” Pam pleaded with him. “She’s your daughter all right. I guess it must have happened that final morning we spent together before the crash. Given how badly burnt I was it’s a wonder I didn’t miscarry her right then and there. But I guess that given the fact that she was just about being conceived at the time she somehow made it through,” Pam said and seeing how Bobby’s eyes were so full with emotions Pam could feel her own emotions running wild too. “Of course I didn’t know about her at first. I was too busy trying to recover to even notice a change. I even thought that the missing period was due to the accident. It wasn’t until they finally took off the bandages that I found out that I was four months pregnant...”Bobby looked surprised, “I still don’t get it, you left us because you were pregnant?”“Yes,” Pam nodded.“But that doesn’t make any sense...that if anything should just have been another reason for you to stay...”“No I couldn’t stay...don’t you see, if I’d stayed you’d just talked me into having an abortion and...”“What an abortion?” Disbelief shone in his eyes. “Are you crazy?” Bobby asked. “After all we’ve been through to have a baby of our own. How could you even think that I would ever ask you that?”“Because the doctors told me that it was either the baby’s life or mine,” Pam revealed.“Oh Pam no…” Bobby whispered emotionally, as the pieces started to fit.“They couldn’t be certain of course. There was a small chance we’d both live,” Pam said with tears in her eyes. “But even if I did decide to have the baby they couldn’t guarantee that I would make it long enough for it to survive...”“You mean that you risked your own life to have this baby?”“Yes and I knew you’d never let me do that so...”“That’s why you left,” Bobby finished her sentence, as it finally made sense now.“Yes so now you’ll see why I had to leave?”“No, I mean yes, but no you shouldn’t have,” Bobby said. “I mean I know we’ve always wanted another child but…if those were the options, no I wouldn’t have let you go through with it. As no baby would be worth your life...” Bobby said emotionally. “I mean what were you thinking Pam?”“I don’t know,” Pam said emotionally. “I just knew that I was pregnant, against all odds and with the new expertise chances were that I could make it if I stayed hospitalized during my entire pregnancy. So I had to leave both for the baby’s sake and mine...”“Wait a minute...are you telling me that all the things you wrote about how you were ashamed about the way you looked and that you left us for our own good was just lies to cover up the real reason you left?”“Well the part about my looks was, as mind you, I might have cared about my looks a great deal, but I’m not that vain.”“That’s what I thought...”“The part about leaving you for your own good wasn’t a lie though. Because I didn’t want to give up this baby, which you would have made me and even if you hadn’t I didn’t want to burden you with my pregnancy and the constant fear of losing our baby or me or maybe even both. So I figured that the best thing I could do was to leave you,” Pam cried. “Then maybe one day, if I against all odds survived I could return with our baby and well you might yell at me at first and tell me I was crazy. But I was certain that once you’ve got to see that little baby you’d forgive me...”                        “So why didn’t you?”“Return?”“Yes I mean obviously you survived or else you wouldn’t be sitting here now.”“True, still it wasn’t an easy pregnancy and those doctors surely weren’t kidding when they told me that it might kill me, as it almost did. I mean towards the end of the pregnancy I was so weak that when I was about 7 and a half months along the doctors told me that the only option left was to deliver the baby right now with a caesarian. Or else I would kill both my baby and me.”“Seven and a half month?” Bobby asked. “But that’s way too premature...”“It is and I tried to protest, but I was too weak. It was the day before our divorce was finalized and the last thing I remember was going into surgery. The baby was delivered and I slipped into a coma. The next time I woke up it was two months later. The first thing I asked for was our baby and I feared they’d tell me that she hadn’t made it. But she had. She was still in an incubator at the time, and even then, two months later she was about the tiniest baby I’ve ever seen. Even tinier than John Ross and he too was way premature.”“I remember,” Bobby managed a weak smile. “Still I guess that tells you something about Ewing babies, they just won’t give up that easily...”“No they won’t...the first time I saw her I was really frighten she’d die and the doctors told me I might be dying too, as I was sick.”“Sick?”“Yeah, you’ll see all those burns gave me skin cancer.”“Oh Pam,” Bobby’s eyes filled with tears. “I wish you would have told me.”“I wanted to, but I didn’t want to come back just to die away from you. I was still weak from Rebecca’s birth and the doctors couldn’t guarantee that my body could stand the treatment. But I had to have chemo, as it was my only chance. So I began treatment. I still wasn’t out of danger when Cliff came to see me,” Pam cried. “Having to send him away broke my heart, but I really did think that I did it to protect you and Christopher...”“Maybe so, but I still wish you would have come home then Pam. We would have welcomed you with open arms. Of course it wouldn’t have been easy but neither was your crash and we made it through that and…” Bobby’s voice broke, as he too started to cry.“I know and I wish I could have come back. But it was just impossible. You’ll see Rebecca was not putting on weight like she should, as I couldn’t breastfeed her. So they didn’t recommend me to move her and I couldn’t leave her. I think that if I had it would have killed us both. So I had to stay,” Pam explained, with the tears rolling down her checks.“I see, so when could you take her home?”“Not until a lot later,” Pam replied. “You’ll see our condition was still unstable for the next couple of weeks and then it slowly started to turn. Somehow being close to each other really helped us recover and 11 months after Rebecca’s birth I had finished chemo and we were finally released from the hospital. However as Cliff had come to see me without you I knew that you must have moved on and therefore I knew that I couldn’t just return to Southfork as I had originally planned. Besides while Rebecca was out of danger at this point, I still wasn’t sure that the cancer was gone for good...”“When did you know for sure?”“Not until a year later,” Pam replied.“You should have come back then.”“Maybe I should. But as you were together with April then I didn’t wanna interfere with your life.”“Well I appreciate the concern, but really as much as I loved April, I think that if you’d come back then, I still would have been happy to see you,” Bobby revealed.Pam smiled at that, “Really?”“Really,” Bobby nodded. “Besides how could you deny me my daughter?” Bobby asked in a hurt voice. “I mean if I hadn’t run into you today would you ever have told me about her then?”“I don’t know. Maybe it was wrong of me to keep her a secret from you. But if it makes you feel any better I had made arrangements for her to be sent to you in the case of my death...” Pam was unable to go on as she was sobbing so badly now.Seeing how upset Pam was he couldn’t help but taking her into his arms, “It’s okay. I didn’t mean to be so harsh on you. In fact why don’t you tell me what happened next?”“Well nothing much happened really. Rebecca and I moved into a house here in Los Angeles. I hired a private nurse to look after us and also a maid and I kept going to regular checkups at the clinic where Rebecca was born and well that’s pretty much been my life during the last couple of years.”“And Rebecca, she’s um...healthy?” Bobby asked.“What do you mean?”“I mean she doesn’t have any disabilities caused by the heavy medications you took during the pregnancy or from being premature?”“Luckily no,” Pam shook her head before she smiled. “She’s like any other normal 7 year old girl. Or well she might be a bit spoiled rotten of course, but considering that I never thought I’d ever be able to have any biological kids, I guess that’s to be expected...”“I guess so...” Bobby said thoughtfully. Everything Pam had told him really had been a lot to absorb at once and right now he wasn’t even sure how to feel about it. Should I be happy for suddenly having a daughter? Bobby pondered. Or should I be angry with Pam for making all these decisions without me and keeping my daughter away from me? Then most importantly, even if Pam had no reason to lie to him how could he know she was telling him the truth. What if she’s lying to me? Bobby looked at her suspiciously. Can I really dare to believe in what she’s told me? Bobby wondered. The whole story about Rebecca almost sounds too good to be true. He didn’t get too much time to ponder though, as Pam’s words interrupted his train of thoughts. “So when do you wanna meet your daughter?” Pam asked. “I mean do you wanna go back to my place now or do you wanna wait until tomorrow?”“I don’t know...” Bobby said thoughtfully, as he wasn’t sure how much more he could take for one day.“I see. Not quite the answer I was hoping for but...”“No I do wanna see her,” Bobby hurried to reassure Pam. “It’s just that don’t you think she’s at school?”“No, school’s out for the year,” Pam smiled before she threw a glance at her watch, which showed at 3 in the afternoon.  “So she should be at home with Nancy, that’s our maid, by now.”“Okay, well if you say so, I guess seeing her today’s fine,” Bobby said and tried to smile to hide the confusion he still felt inside.“Great!” Pam said in a relieved voice. “Then we’d better get going.” They got up and Bobby paid the bill with extra tip, as Pam went on. “I’ve got my car parked a couple of blocks from here and oh Bobby just wait until you’ll get to see her, she’s just the most adorable little girl and I just know that you’re gonna love her...” Pam blabbered eagerly, as they left the restaurant together. Both feeling a sense of expectation lingering in the air as they were taking a big step here and walking there next to Pam, knowing that he had a daughter he’d never met, Bobby just knew that their lives were about to change forever...</blockquote>

Verification: What month follows July?